things changed and things remain

Lots of things have changed since I began job hunting, it just seems like all kinds of information, thoughts pop out from nowhere, and of course all on the good side, things I never bothered to consider before came into my mind, and I actually begin to tell myself that maybe this job hunting period isn't so bad, even though the pressure is still around me all the time.

First of all, I began to think deeply about my career, my future and what do I really want in my life. It is understandable that when you are in a comfortable position, you tend to stop thinking, to avoid from considering any negative sides of your situation, persuade yourself that you are just doing fine. I’m not saying I’m any different from others, staying in my safe area, do whatever task they give me. But now, things have change a whole lot, it doesn’t mean that I stop doing my job, but I have seriously wondering what I want to have, achieve, and start to make my very first career plan.

I used to have a lot of spare time, well it might seem like a good thing for others, but without any time-costing habits, interests or hobby, it doesn’t sound so perfect to me. But this situation has stopped right away when I began job hunting, there is so much things to do and to prepare and to upgrade myself, I have been pretty busy ever since then.

A book written by Jack Canfield came into sight yesterday, I have heard the Chinese version of this book long long time ago, but never paid any attention, but this time, I begin to read it (seriously, read it out loud), and think about the deep meanings of each short story, this little book is like a treasure box to me, but I can only read one or two stories a day, or it would be a waste.

 kristen marie

This job hunting period wouldn’t last forever, nor do I want it that way, but all the thoughts and changes I have gained will remain, I don’t know whom should I express my thanks to, so maybe just to myself instead~

strong emotions equal failure memories??

I text to kihyun the other night, mentioning that I really feel tired these days, all I wanna do is thinking about nothing, live like a fool if possible. I know I'm whining again, and he's my safety zone. He told me to focus on the accomplishment I already have, only in that way can I stop pretending to be miserable.

I start to think this might be a common phenomena for everyone, I've listened to Jack Canfield from time to time, he said that we always tend to memorize the failures in our life, because almost all the strong emotions came from failure experiences, in this way those strong emotion memories keep us from making the same mistakes once again, I guess this is part of evolutionism. I don't want to argue about the accuracy of this theory, one thing I do learn from this: try to memorize every success in your life, or you can simply write down the accomplishments and success you have achieved everyday, big ones like win some prize or complete some tough task, small ones like feed a stray dog, help family with some household reparis, or even finish your dishes piled with the vegetables you hate, go and see your journal whenever you feel unconfident or discouraged, I'm sure this would cheer you up. well, I'm gonna find my pen now... what are you still wating for?

   winxstock from flickr

I wanna a mugshot

                       (anyone know the source??)

I wanna a mugshot too, but what should I write on the blackboard......

handmade address stamp

                                Primele

                              Primele

A handmade address stamp!! how awesome is that, it is made from an idea factory runs in a lovely family Primele, check by the link if you like. Hoping to get one of these as soon as I get my permanent house~

hunger for something inspired

love love dress

amazing capture

summer

something with beauty

I need inspiration, I need time, and I need energy, am I asking too much??

busy weekend

Rain plus hurricane, so moist these days, I just want to stay in the couch and type words all day long.

Attend a friend's wedding on Saturday, traditional Korean style, unfortunately I didn't bring my camera...not so much memory left, damn I'm so forgetful.

Another thing, Kihyun went back to China on the same day, guess I won't have a chance to see him for another four months, kinda miss him already, he called me on the boat, I told him about the things I have been hasitating recently, I'm grateful to have known him.

plz give me 28 hours a day...

So much things to prepare recently, seems like that there is never enough time.

Lots of energy is needed to keep on blogging, I try to write something down everyday, but that doesn't go on quite well, say sorry to myself.

I'm trying to write a major description today, it doesn't turn out quite well even after the whole day's work, I'm still considering whether to attach some photos of experimental data or not. Well, I got to finish it tomorrow.

Since I didn't have time to read blogs, there is not too much of inspiration right now, I have to keep up with my reading.

                             hydrangeas-in-bloom

Here is a bottle of Hydrangeas to cheer up, the amazing blue color.