Friday, October 29, 2010

what needs to be done

I'm being hesitating over my choice, I mean they all have been made over some serious thoughts, I assumed any reply of them would be a good offer for me, compare to my current situation, but here I am now, a nice offer in my hand, along with a location I always wanted to be, I find myself still not so stabilized. I ask myself what the reason could be, but nothing come out of my head after over and over thinking.

When tracked in a situation like this, having a nice conversation to friends is always the right thing to do, and of course I did, it is comforting to know that they really care about me, try their best to giving the best advises, though they are quite different thoughts from each other, I did see some point of view which never occured to me before. I really appreciate that.

Here I am now, with only one thing left to do, which is to-make-a-list, with all the strong points and weak points, I'm sure result will come out clearly enough.

and one thing more, I should start re-writing my career plan soon.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Pencil Vs Camera

Guiltiness


I'm having too much spare time right now, I feel the guilty of doing nothing, but with no eager to do anything, sort of self-contradiction, I know.

There are people start to be in a relationship, there are people who just went through a tearing break up, there are people having a blind date right about now, there are people who are planning their future together. Those are some wonderful things happen everyday, but unfortunately none of them has anything to do with me. I'm a poor little kid who's been left at the lonest corner where no one could find. (a little sad story, I know).

There are things I should have started to pay attention long time ago which I found myselt way too lack of concern, somthing like family, now all the guilty has come to me like an unstoppable storm, I have to persuade myself that there is still time to make a difference, but not so much that I could play for it anymore. So this would do my confession and determination.

It's getting colder and colder every minute, I just want to hibernate.

what's the meaning of traveling


A new post from one of my favorite blogger came into sight on Friday, in that perticular artical, he concluded three phases of his thought about traveling.

at first, it was all about curiosity, the eager for different views outside his own world, the nature, the food, the buildings, even the same sky would seem bluer than before.
after certen period of time of traveling, he found himself not focusing on searching for the differ anymore, it's more about a lifestyle to get away from his work, his normal life, or to say "to take a break"

as for the third phase which is what is going through his mind now, is that it has nothing to do with any kind of escapism, the amazing views or architecture nomore, he starts to focus on people, different kinds of people all over the world, that's the key factor to the diversity of human cultures, what they have been going through in their life and their ancestors have made them who they are today, that's the foundation of their diversity culture, their life style and their religions.

I have to admit that I have never thought about this before, all I know is that I want to go to anywhere else besides my own territory,the yearn for difference, but a deeper question of what is the difference really about, I thinking this blog has given me a quite convictive answer. I assume this is the charm of blogging, always lots of fresh thoughts and inspirations waiting for me.

Friday, October 22, 2010

bad-luck-day

Fate or destiny, I'm not such a big fun of those things, at least in normal conditions, but when there are something bad happened one after another, and no reasonable answer could be found, I turn my thoughts to those mystical directions, like today...

Okay, start from beginning, yesterday I ordered four items online, three of which were mailed right away, and I thought that's fast, so I will get them today, oh yeah~ then you know what, just this morning, I found out that I had used the wrong mail address for two items...they are mailing to the wrong address at this moment, and what's worse, my phone number registed is false too!! so, I have apply for the return with a indemnity of 10,000 KRW...that almost a whole pizza's price for god's sake... then in the afternoon, when I got another item only to find that the glass bottle has been smashed into pieces... and the sticky honey inside of it just spilled out all over the box and spong, that's a hell of disgusting as anyone could imagine... Phew~ so this is my day till now, full of surprises I could say, not in a good way, not in a good way...

Among all the tragedies, I guess the only thing I'm with luck is that I didn't cut my finger when cleaning up those glassfragment, and today's gonna end up soon, hope things would go smoothly from now on, but even if there is some other things happen, it wouldnot be a huge surprise for me anymore, still, let's behave cautiously...

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Heels - those things driving women crazy

no source, sorry

habits, dreams

"habit", I havenot think about this word before, or should I say I tried my best to avoid thinking this word, but now I have to face the truth, I have developed too much bad habits already.

There are times I tried to change it, and it did work for two or three weeks, but then something would happen, and I just went back to the old habits again, this kind of iterative pattern comes and goes all the time. Is it the strong will that I'm lack of counts the most??

There is an old says in China goes like "春困秋乏" which means "One feels dizziness in spring and fatigue in autumn.", this is absolutely the right discription of me recently, I cannot remember since when I began to be like this, feeling tired all day long, cannot get up in the morning, have trouble to fall asleep in the night, I even came to a conclusion that this is my climacteric, lol.... I know, this couldnot be true, I could just wish for the best that this period will vanish sooooon.

Checking my calendars, I began to text Kihyun since May, which means this has been going on for over five months, I didnot thought this could last this long at the begining, and also I never thought this would come to an end without a sign, yes, after five months' frequent contact, I start to "forget" to do this anymore, and he also starts to forget to text back, so, things go back to the normal track, I suppose. To discribe my feeling right now, " relief " maybe correct, it doesnot mean that I treat this as some kind of burden, but frankly I'm happy that I finally learned how to let it go, the things or feelings that isn't right at the very beginning, I find my way to get over it till this day. I guess it's right that people get wiser as they getting older, it's an endless process of learning.

Monday, October 18, 2010

sad little bunny

Disappoint, hope and energy

Lack of posting for a few days, but don't get me wrong, I'm not being lazy at all. Things starts to get busier than before.

First, I went to climbing on Friday, yes, climbing, you heard it right, even though it was only a two hour course, I still get sooooo tired that all the muscles around my thigh and hip hurt badly for the next three days, I sucks at mountaineering!!

Then Saturday I should or should I say strongly wish to stay in for the whole day after those strenuous exercise, but there is a wedding I could not turn down for any reason, so there I am, 10cm high heels and suits up, managed to stay in a supper crowded metro for  hours, arrived at wedding hall 20 minutes late, to congrates the happiest couple in the world at that very moment, I have to admit that this wedding makes me re-thinking about marriage.

After the wedding, there were us, six single people, four girls and two boys to be exact, having no other plan to kill this saturday evening at all, gether together at starbucks, chit chat for three whole hours!! this is something I havenot done for a long long time, it was great, after not seeing those former coworkers for months, we still get the chance to gethered on this very day, there were some new for each friend, some of them got out of a long-term relationship, some of them had some bad blind dates, some remains the same, I certainly hope there would be another chance to see them sometime.

  

There was one of my friends I hoped to see at the wedding, I have been imaging the scene of seeing him for some time, but at the end he didn't show up, no need to say I was disappointed, but when it comes to him, I lose all my courage to call him or even mention him in front of other friends, so I heard nothing about him at all. You probably would assume that this guy must be the one I have unrequited love with, well, right and wrong, I had no feelings for him for years, but I'm not sure if I have feelings for him now, since I couldnot find an answer for this question, I decided to giving up thinking of it. yeah, I'm a lamaster when it comes to this...

I should have some images taken during the trip and event, but unfortunately I didn't have enough energy and courage to carry the heaviest DSLR in the world ( I know, I'm being way too exaggerating ), so, nothing left this time except for the memories in my head which will be forgotten as time goes by.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

something blue


there you are, a blue shaky mouse, that's something blue I never thought... big love to I love you much, there is just something different about her blog, something really amazing, belated congrats to her fabulous wedding

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Old images

 
 
 
 
I have no idea where these amazing images originally from, sorry about that.

decision-making period

Lack of posting recently, I know, the main reason is that I didnot get too much time for reading, I can always get some inspiration or ideas from other people's words, I guess this is pretty common to most of us, we are not ideologist after all. Sometimes I'm thinking I need a recorder, cuz ideas and thoughts can always come out and vanish soooo quickly, and I don't have the supper ability to remember them for hours, I guess this is why we should carry a pen with us all the time, but I wouldnot think it is enought even with a pen in my hand, as the thoughts are passing by way faster then writing, so, instead of a pen, I need a recorder.

After months of waiting, opportunities start to pop out this week, not the real opportunities that I can see my future with clearly, but it is still a good sign, I mean I'm kind of getting used to hear nothing at all over few months, so I could say that my efforts finally come up with something, and what I have to do now is making decisions, hesitating would do no good to me. I don't know what other people would do before they made their major decisions in their life, probably talk with someone they trust, like parents or friends, well, I used to make decisions all by myself, but the results didnot turn out to be very well, except for come-to-Korea-decision, so this time, I'm thinking I need to talk to someone, someone who knows my situation right now, someone who knows my concern, someone who know what am I doing or can do for living, someone who knows me for a not short period, then there is actually only few person left... what are my options...

Monday, October 11, 2010

smile switch


Love this design~ the idea that such a simple design could make our life more colorful is perfect for today's inspiration, not to mention that it is originally Made in China~

Sunday, October 10, 2010

for this season

As the weathet getting cold day by day, I suddenly come to a situation of no-cloth-to-wear-at-all, this is a typical thing for girls, I think, as the old saying goes, there is always one cloth missing in every girl's wardrobe. I look through internet from time to time when I'm lack of inspiration, there are always some surprises, like today, I saw these two images, these are just the one I'm looking for, pants and high heels, no need to be too feminine during this season, am I right??

anyone know the source??

Friday, October 8, 2010

Disappear from social contact




My latest email was received on September 27th, which means my email hasnot been updated for over ten days, there are spam or junk mails everyday, but none useful ones. Or this is a notice telling me that I should start to connect with friends again.

I guess there are times when you don't want to talk or see anyone for everybody, all you want to do is to stay home, a cup of coffee, a formerly readed book and of course a cozy couch would be just perfect, so you don't have to wash face or hair, wear any make up, and you can put on pajamas, order take-out, be as lazy as you can imagine. Yeah, well, this is a picture of my life, occasionally, I can't speak for other peoples, but this is the thing I won't give up for anyone, not even my future husband (if I decide to get married eventually, of course), I guess I'm a bad girl...

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Hankook Tires


As I was surffing on the internet, Hankook's official website caught my eye by accident, briefly browsing the overview part, I found this website a little bit different than others, as if it is partly made by some engineering professionals, it contains lots of valuable information about tires, like history, functions, structures, etc. Another part I'm impressed is introduction, I've seen bunch of websites recently, Hankook's overview part seems different to me, I feel more sincere there, just reading for ten minutes, I've already became interested in tires, isn't that weird??

Monday, October 4, 2010

High heels to self-confidence

It has been such a busy weekend, I didn't get enough sleep for two days straight, sooo sleepy right now.

I'm tired both mentally and physically, after long vacant period of high heels, I'm not used to thoese fancy shoes any more. Nine hours of 10 cm heels without any chance to sit down, I just wanted to kick thoes beautiful yet torturous things off to set my poor feet free, god that was a nightmare.

They say high heels are the ladders to self-confidence, for ladies of course, I'm not willing to admite that I agree with it, though I have a suggestion that I would like to make, which is to have men wearing heels for just one day, let them really realize what women are going through here.

Alas, who am I kidding, it is women ourselves who won't give up those heels, it has little thing to do with others.....

 

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Fwd: Dinner party beneath the golden gate bridge

A small size party held by someone with fabulous thoughts, this is the exact kind of experiences I'm eager to have, seeing something this fantastic makes me partly enlightening, yet partly feel sorry for my own pitiful life. I have to say I envy them, seriously I mean it...

Friday, October 1, 2010

indulgent Friday night

Time seems to go faster than before, friday comes again without the least expect, or I'm just working too hard to notice time passing by, ha!! who am I kidding.

It's friday, it's definitely the indulgent day, or the indulgent night to be exact, my original plan is roast chicken, I saw a chicken peddlery yesterday on my way back home without any cash but pennies in my wallet, errr, that feels not good at all, no ATM machine nearby, I can do nothing but give up, walked by with a huge abashment of drooling out of control. So today I have to give myself a break, a break from healthy eating, to my big disappointment, the roast chicken booth doesn't show up today... things always doesn't work out in the way you expect, so what's the substitution of roast chicken?? pizza!! that's my answer for this week's indulgent-friday-menu, gosh, I'm gonna make a pig of myself again, hushhh~